Personal Growth

Of late, I have been feeling that life can be exciting and joyful sometimes, yet stressful and almost unlivable at other times. This mixed feeling is strange because nothing seems to remain constant for long. One moment, I feel grateful, energetic, and hopeful; the next, I feel overwhelmed by thoughts, responsibilities, and uncertainties.

Perhaps this is what life really is—a collection of contrasting emotions that coexist. I am slowly learning that I don’t have to understand or control every feeling. Some days bring excitement, while others demand patience and strength. Maybe accepting this unpredictability, rather than fighting it, is itself a part of living.

I have slowly realised that experiencing the same situation from both sides is one of the most valuable things life has given me.

Earlier, if someone didn’t respond to my message, I would think, “Wow, how difficult is it to reply?” Then life put me on the other side. I became the person who saw a message, thought “I’ll reply in five minutes,” and remembered it three days later. 😄

That one experience changed something in me.

Now, when I look at situations, I automatically wonder what the other side might be experiencing. It has added a different kind of depth to my relationships and, honestly, to how I see people and life overall.

The coin really does have two sides. I’ve just had the opportunity to hold both.

For quite a few months, I have been noticing a strange pattern in my life. The things I desire the most seem to move farther away instead of coming closer. I have always believed in the law of attraction and trusted that my thoughts and feelings shape my reality. But lately, my experiences have been showing me something entirely different.

So I have decided to step away from this idea for a while and simply watch what unfolds. I am not fighting it, proving it, or rejecting it. I am just sitting with this new experiment and experiencing myself in a different way without knowing what this pause may become.

One lesson I've learned is that I shouldn't try to control what others say—especially my parents and family members.

I'm talking about everyday, petty situations. Correcting them or telling them what they should or shouldn't say often makes them uncomfortable, and honestly, it rarely changes anything. Nobody is going to dance to my tunes, and that's okay.

I remember getting upset with my father because he told my uncle that I was moving to another city. At the time, it felt like a big deal. Later, I realized it made absolutely no difference to my life.

Sometimes, peace begins the moment we stop trying to control conversations and start accepting people as they are.